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ch-ch-check it out.

2008-12-19T19:57:00.003+07:00

just found out this amazing site ! it's hillarious, i found my self caught up reading those silly posts. ch-ch-check it out! . and i downloaded some more music from The White Tie Affair and 16 Frames. ;D

a friend

2008-12-16T15:35:00.003+07:00

it was way back when we used to be so close. we're inseparable, well at least that how i felt. but then i made a mistake that i thought at that time will never be this huge and cause a heartache. yeah we're close, and i guess it is my fault to give him such hope and crush it. i didn't know that my existence there would matter so much to him at that time. i really didn't know that it's that important. i thought we're just such good friends. i did'nt know him like i do know now. we barely know each other last name and yet he expect me to know him well. i'm not blaming him for this but pleaseeee, will you forget the thing i did. can we start over and be friends such good friends? its the only thing i ask for you. to forget what i did and start over. you still affect me these days. you still do.. you're a good friend. i wish we still can be friends like we used to. i miss you. and i still remember those late night calls. i miss you , friend. ;''(

Tuesdays with Morrie

2008-12-15T16:05:00.002+07:00

i found many quotes from the book Tuesdays with Morrie, and i found some are very fascinating. so yeah. here it is.

Life Lessons From Tuesdays With Morrie (Doubleday, 1997)
1. “Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do.” (p. 18)
2. “Accept the past as past, without denying it or discarding it.” (p. 18)
3. “Learn to forgive yourself and to forgive others.” (p. 18)
4. “Don’t assume that it is too late to get involved.” (p. 18)
5. Find someone to share your heart, give to your community, be at peace with yourself, try to be as human as you can be. (p. 34)
6. “Love always wins.” (p. 40)
7. “The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn’t work, don’t buy it.” (p. 42)
8. “So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they’re chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.” (p. 43)
9. “ . . . if you really want it, then you’ll make your dream happen.” (p. 47)
10. “The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.” (p. 52)
11. “Love is the only rational act.” (p. 52)
12. “I don’t allow myself any more self-pity than that. A little each morning, a few tears, and that’s all . . . . It’s horrible to watch my body slowly wilt away to nothing. But it’s also wonderful because of all the time I get to say goodbye.” (p. 57)
13. “Sometimes you can’t believe what you see; you have to believe what you feel.” (p. 61)
14. “What if today were my last day on earth?” (p. 64)
15. “Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live.” (p. 82)
16. If you accept you are going to die at any time, then you might not be as ambitious as you are. (p. 83)
17. There is no foundation, no secure ground, upon which people may stand today if it isn’t the family. (p. 91)
18. “Don’t cling to things, because everything is impermanent.” (p. 103)
19. “ . . . If you’ve found meaning in your life you don’t want to go back. You want to go forward. You want to see more, do more. You can’t wait until sixty-five.” (p. 118)
20. “Money is not a substitute for tenderness, and power is not a substitute for tenderness.” (p. 125)
21. “ . . . love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone.” (p. 133)
22. “Love each other or perish.” (p. 149)
23. “ . . . the big things—how we think, what we value—those you must choose yourself. You can’t let anyone--or any society—determine those for you.” (p. 155)
24. “Don’t let go too soon, but don’t hang on too long.” (p. 162)
25. “Be compassionate. And take responsibility for each other. If we only learned those lessons, this world would be so much better a place.” (p. 163)
26. “Forgive yourself before you die. Then forgive others.” (p. 164)
27. “As long as we can love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. All the love you created is still there. All the memories are still there. You live on—in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here.” (p. 174)
28. “Death ends a life, not a relationship.” (p. 174)
29. The important questions have to do with love, responsibility, spirituality, awareness. (p. 175)
30. “You’re not a wave, you are part of the ocean.” (p. 180)
31. “ . . . there is no such thing as ‘too late’ in life.” (p. 190)

;)

2008-12-04T15:39:00.004+07:00

"the fights you fight today are the fights you fight until you die."
-Rocket Science

"you need to have a little faith, not everyone you love is going to leave you."
-The Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants 2

"I know what it is to not feel like you're in the room until he looks at
you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just
to let everyone know... you're with him. You're his."
-P.S. I Love You

"If you think I've given up on you, you're crazy and if you think I don't love you, then you're just wrong."
-Blues Traveller

"And after all that has been said and done
there's still a part of me that just can't let you go."
-Chicago

Hello again,
it's you and me-kinda always like it used to be.
Sippin' wine, killing time,
trying to solve life's mysteries.
- Bon Jovi

*smile.

2008-12-03T19:30:00.001+07:00

Some people care too much, I think it's called love.
-Winnie the Pooh

Let me tell you something you already know. the world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. it is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. you, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. but it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. how much you can take and keep moving forward. that's how winning is done. now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. but you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. - rocky balboa

A person is never as quiet or bitter as they seem... or as good, as bad, as vulnerable, as strong or as sweet. we are thickly layered, page by page, behind simple cover. and love - it is not the book itself, but the binding. it can either rip us apart or hold us together.

Everyone says that love hurts, but thats not true. loneliness hurts; rejection hurts. losing someone hurts. envy hurts. everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. - twilight

well, you might hide behind your computer screen,
and i might hide behind my music,
and she might hide behind her sports,
but the truth of it is, we all have something that we're hiding,
and maybe we should stop running for cover,
cause what might happen when those things can't defend us anymore?

maybe this world is another planet's hell.
-Aldous Huxley

it is amazing, really, just how much pain the human heart can take.
-Stephen King

fear isn't so difficult to understand.
after all, weren't we all fightened as children?
nothing has changed since little red riding hood faced the big bad wold.
what frightens us today is exactly the same sort of thing
that frightened us yesterday.
it's just a different wolf.
this fright complex is rooted in every individual.

you may not realize it when it happens,
but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you.
-Walt Disney

I’ve spent my whole life compromising and being a good little girl and not doing what I want, or doing what I want and hiding it and feeling guilty for doing it, and I’m sick of it.
-Gilmore Girls

plin plan

2008-12-03T16:38:00.003+07:00

you talk shit about me having so many mistakes but what's up with you . now you're the one doing all the shit that you hated. wishy-washy is all that i can took from you. next time, for your sake. and other sanity plese and i really do beg you, please reflect yourself!!

saturday morning.

2008-11-22T10:38:00.002+07:00

boredom strikes again as usual . going to read breaking dawn and i heard that twilight is out ! damndamn wanna watch it baddd. but is it still only in the US or.. ?? im bored. plurk ngebosenin juga lagi . haha. ;((

him and the lyrics

2008-11-16T20:23:00.003+07:00

well i made a cd for randy, and well its just a random thing to do cause well i got nothing to do that is the first reason the second is. well i love the song. haha . ;D and here are the lyrics from some of them which is the point why i give him this kinda song

"give me more lovin from the very start.

piece me back together when i fall apart.

tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.

make me feel good when i hurt so bad.

best that i've had.

im so glad that i found you.

i love bein around you."

1234-plain white t's

"I may not have the softest touch

I may not say the words as such

I know I don't fit in that much

But I'm yours"

im yours - the script

"He kissed my lips

I taste your mouth

He pulled me in

I was disgusted with myself

You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself

Let you go"

thinking of you- I D K (i really dont know)

"we won't let this fall apart

I'm not leaving this alone

I thought forever meant forever

Not tomorrow or today"

Mistakes i havent made -a rocket to the moon

late night heart talk. (?)

2008-11-16T20:11:00.002+07:00

"We're taking everything for granted

Replacing everything with heavy hearts

Now I'm losing my mind

And losing everything I've had"

-Mistakes i haven't made by A rocket to the moon

uth.rawr says:

suka kesel deh ama mereka.

uth.rawr says:

bener2x kesel

deanne ps says:

mereka siapa?

deanne ps says:

mereka siapa toh?

uth.rawr says:

gg ngerti juga gw ternyata sikap gw sebegitu menganggu nya ke mereka. gw kaget banget kadang smpe gw sebel sendiri. pgn teriak pgn marah2x tapi kyk gg ad yg peduli. belomlagi masalah di rumah . masalah sma dndng . gw cape lo lulus ntar gw gimana .gw males de bener2x. males bgt pengen nangis a. skerang gara2x ini gw kehilangan banyak banget . beneer2 org yg gw lari ke semua keadaan jadi ngejauh juga . karana mulut2x kotor mereka. gw kehilangan orang yg tulus jadi sahabat gw . gw ksel de. ap amereka pikir gw doang yg gitu kenap agw dooang yg di omongin . ap aiy gw smpe sebegitu nya ke mereka

deanne ps says:

ya gimana ya

deanne ps says:

gw juga gak ngerti cara berfikir mereka

deanne ps says:

lo mau gak mau harus bisa nyelesain masalah itu sendiri semakin lo cerita k dendeng atau lain" ntar lo di kira cari bantuan

deanne ps says:

ntar lo yang tambah di jauhin

deanne ps says:

di kirany ngadu"

deanne ps says:

kalaupun nanti gw lulus lo mau pindah sekolah gw rasa itu bukan penyelesain dari masalah

deanne ps says:

yang ada lo lari dari masalah

uth.rawr says:

iya de gw tau . cuman gw bener2x cape . gw cape de. fed up with this shit already semua pada bilang gw haruys masang muka tembok . iya iya gw bilang tapi apa iya selamanya gw harus kayak gitu terus . gw bisa stres juga lama2x. huaaah . ;(((

deanne ps says:

nih

deanne ps says:

kalo menurut gw lo selesain masalah lo sendiri

deanne ps says:

kalo lo biarin gitu aja

deanne ps says:

ntar kedepan ny nama lo pasti jelek

HAHA. gw yg terlalu bego ap ya?

surviving sunday

2008-11-16T12:35:00.003+07:00

sunday most likely to be a relax one, no more rushing through tests or stuck in the middle of a loooong traffic jam (though where i live and school is not that far). currently reading eclipse. and downloading adhitia sofyan free album. oh how i adore his tunes. i use to listen very carefully to songs just to understand the lyrics. its an addiction. and i live up to the lyrics they sings.

i'm caught up in the romantic yet complicated kinda love stories, edward cullen and bella swan. the stories just blew me away (lebay i know) . since twilight i rush to new moon. and now i landed on eclipse. it makes me curious so much. haha at first i thought twilight is just another craze. but since i read it. wow, it is good. haha . bego! im bored so bored got nothing to do except reading this shit! and listening to this song.

well i made a CD for him, i got nothing to do. i got too much time in my hand. haha. and sometimes. it isnt enough..

bored. hell yeah i wanna have fun! kidnap me from this misery please. ! :(

Rirry lagi in crime.

2008-11-15T17:56:00.003+07:00

Hahaha. jadi barusan lagi baca blog ny si rRirry (alazhar) nih . trus ada ttg si onta onta gitu . ahhaaha dan lalu begini lah jadinya.

uth.doomocracy says:

ADUH AKU NGAKAK BACA POST AN KAMU TTG ONTA

uth.doomocracy says:

AHAHAHAHHAHAH

Riryyy says:

haha knapa coba?emg tau onta siapa?

uth.doomocracy says:

tau lah si *piiiiiiiip*(sensor utk keamanan) kan . haha

uth.doomocracy says:

karateristik nya tuh tuh tuh mirip deh ry

uth.doomocracy says:

haha

Riryyy says:

hahaha,emang dia,trs knp kamu ngakak?

uth.doomocracy says:

gpp .. pas bagian pertama doang kok aku ngakak nya kebawah nya aku lgsg diem .

uth.doomocracy says:

tapi kamu udah g am dy kan ry ?

Riryyy says:

enggak lah,aku aja gamau bgt ama dia haha,emg atas2nya knapa?

uth.doomocracy says:

gpp aha

uth.doomocracy says:

pm pm .

Riryyy says:

haha iya,ah gaenak aku ganti aja

uth.doomocracy says:

hahah

uth.doomocracy says:

pm pm hahah a

lalu si rirry nulis nulis di pm dan jadi lah kita bales2xan haha. sumpah ry . pm lo jahat2x . ahahaha . orang nya pas banget ol lagy . ahhaha .stress streess zz. ;D

dan tibatiba pm rirry berubah "ah mana bakal dia nyadar,kl dia nyadar mah ga ngeduain cewek&GA NGEHAMILIN CEWEK! "

in shock in shock . haha .

uth.doomocracy says:

EH SERIUSAN ITU??

uth.doomocracy says:

ngehamilin cewe ryy ?

Riryyy says:

haha kul yah pm aku?

uth.doomocracy says:

kul!

Riryyy says:

Iyadong haha ga si,udah ml doang

uth.doomocracy says:

yah itu paling boong biar gaya2xan .

Riryyy says:

enggak ko,dia ml sm adek kls aku yg emang udah biasa ml

ehh aduh aduh . emang dasyat nih anak satu . ahahhaah .dasar rirrrrrry ! hahah .;D

sun setting hour

2008-11-15T17:20:00.002+07:00

currently listening to Adhitia Sofyan. his songs are suitable in this kinda hour.

im having my mood swings. which annoy me and the people around me. shit happens, mostly to me A LOT these days. i try to careless about it. but i just doesn't know it could give me distance to the people, who as far as i know now i can call them friends. i got really used being talked about and bitch about. in the old days i got nothing to lose.

im just to lazy to get myself into another mess.

sorry

2008-10-22T16:09:00.002+07:00

i lost another shoulder to rely on. one among ppl. who really stick on. damn it does feel so bad. it's hard now realizing that you have this border around you guys when you used to be so close. when we always share stories and now we're not, I'm used to by ppl that used to be so close leaving but this i really didn't expect this to happen. i'm sorry that it have to be this way . MAV .

1

2008-10-13T17:39:00.002+07:00

harii pertama sekolaaah !
senang senang . guru banyak gg masuk yeahyeahyeah ! haha ;D masi berseragam lengkap kecuali sepatu, benny benasi & the biz setia di kuping dan beberapa lain nya .. tapi ngeselin juga udah mulai aneh aneh saja . mostly ppl LOVE holiday but not to me. cause most of the time i was grounded but yeah i got to stay at my best-est friend house for 3 days 2 night and yeah we have lotslots of fun . heaps of em actually . sekolah sekolah GPS makin bapuk tangan gw keseleo perut gw sakit. betapa menyenangkan . haha no explanation why i had the most disastrous first day

well not a total disaster . but yeah still . ahelah lebay ! males. bye.

snipping

2008-10-02T10:43:00.004+07:00

Do you feel a certain sense of synergy between yourself and me?
A kind of macabre and somber Wondertwin type of harmony
What if it was you?
You that I needed all along
I felt like a fool,
Kicking and screaming and pretending we were wrong

-it had to be you Motion City Soundtrack.

just random lyrics i snatched out of the internet .

im bored.really bored so i just snip it all. while i am bored to death . haha

heaven is out of reach .

2008-10-02T10:24:00.002+07:00

" anywhere you go, anyone you meet
remember that your eyes, can be your enemies
I said, hell is so Close, and heaven's out of reach
but i ain't givin' up quite yet
i've got too much to lose "

live life to the fullest . one day you'll have it all and in a blink you'll lose it all. even more. - that's what a friend of mine said to me. life is full of choices, itsy bitsy choices or a huge-life-or-death kinda thing. you have to choose. whether you like it or not. you just got to deal with it . damn ! choices areee bad !

27 sept, lot has happen

2008-09-27T16:00:00.005+07:00

i haven't posted for a while.

today is 27 september , which supposed to be my 1 year anniversary with my boy, well, ex-boyf. though he hurted me bad, i still love him so damn! we've been through a lot and it doesn't change my love for him nor him towards me. i love him and that cant change. never will.

after we broke up and through some problems. i got close with another guy on this day break it off with me. well, we're not anything by now. but we're just too close as a friends or best friends. we became more like a "couple" but we're not, i'm still in love with my ex but yeah i need to mov eon someday.! and today this other guy break it off with just by simply saying i want it to be normal with you. and how i'm in rage with this ! so yeah i'm trying not to think of him call him or in any chance in contact with him! ;( yeah men are liars but women chose to believe in them .

i miss my ex-boyf. ;(

brothersss.~

2008-09-09T08:21:00.002+07:00

oh dear brother, don't even bother to mind all those shits that people has been talking about our wicked relationship.

yesterday was nice, the way you hugged me. it's different.. i love it a lot . these new kind of hugs. it felt tighter than ever, it's warm . ;D

thoo you have a GF already, it won't change the relationship we got ! haha . i love you brother. more than ever.

thanx for being there for me whenever i need you, your harsh comments, your up-lifting words strikes me up soo much. but yet it's the truth.

please, let's keep it this way. i value this so much!

i love you !

Riri's birthday.

2008-09-06T21:27:00.003+07:00

today is riri's birthday just got home from the party. going home early cause of my mom! urghh.

i hate her. i hate her so much. i hate her damn attitude. but it's hella fun i get to hug him! yeaaay! i miss him bad he looks adorable (my ex.red) haha. i get to hug him. and he's with me almost all the time. but he pisses me off badd. i don't know why whenever i'm around him i always get mad! and like always he can calms me down. but then he kisses my cheek asking for me to not get mad , he's sweet and all that but still i can't forgive him for the things he have done to me. he hurted me bad! ;(

and i hate my mother's attitude. i hateeee herr!!! pure rageee!!!

argh!! and so now i'm surfing the net finding more stuff to do.. hmm.. i was reading raditya dika's dot com. and i join plurk but still i don't know how to use it so i log out . does anybody know how to use plurks??? ;)

2008-09-06T14:21:00.002+07:00

Pictures of you, pictures of me

Hung upon your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you, pictures of me

Remind us all of what we used to be

-Pictures of you

After all this time

I never thought we'd be here

Never thought we'd be here

When my love for you was blind

But I couldn't make you see it

Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know

A part of me died when I let you go

-Blind

bad-ass!

2008-09-05T19:51:00.002+07:00

a total bad-ass day. i effin hate this day. gag tau knapa ya ? kayaknya banyak banget masalahnya hari ini. haha. cuman gara2x deket ama orang aj ya, bisa gitu di omongin! argh! jealousy! mungkin ya gw nya juga yang terlalu deket tapi DUDE! orang yang bersangkutan aja gag ada masalah, sekut2x aj. malah orang lain yang ngurusin, suka gag penting. haha. lagian well, he is my effin' awesome brother. orang lain yang ribut ttg hubungan gw sama dy ! so what? peduli setan lah!

talking about an open relationship with yori makes me wonder. what relationship do i have with these two different guys! in a deep dilemma . i really love my ex well, we had something for almost a year, that meant something to me! but the other guy is truly extremely jealousy . argh ! i really hate that ! but then it is a chaotic life highschool means drama, i guess. !

lil' -beloved- brother.

2008-09-04T17:01:00.002+07:00

just got home, hanging out at school. not as long as i used to thoo.

was hanging out with my senior and started raining, so they moved their car to the inside parking lot. i was parking my senior's car when it stopped raining. and so i got out of the car and went back to the lobby. ask my junior to drive me home and he drove me home

haha it was hella fun! he is such a free-spirited man!

i do really love his spirit

thoo we only knew in such a short time but he is like a brother to me! haha, ;D

i love your spirit dude!!!